Never let the fear in you strike out, keep it from playing the game

The weak side of me

2006-04-14T01:30:00.000-07:00

Problem after problem... How long can this boat withstand these
rough condition??? I have no idea... Maybe it will sink even
before it reaches its destination... hahaha...

This year juz sucks... hell lot of commotions going on!!! stress!!!
And I am losing half of my hair while the other half is turning
grey!!! Save me from this agony!!! Someone... Juz do it!!!
hahaha... those of u whom I had talked to... u should know
what I mean... hectic schedule... suddenly 24hr per day juz
dont seem to be enough... No much times for my friends,
buddies, daddy, and love ones. LOL... u know who u r...

Family problems... blah blah blah... and alot more that's
too personal to blog abt... but some of u should know...
hahaha... ESP DADDY and buddies!!! know me in and
out le...

Next is the "chapter 2" of the previous entry...
FINALLY girl 1 got to read my entry... juz as
expected she confronted me... LOL... I was not
the least angry... it is EXPECTED... Well...
To girl 1:
If u want ppl to be frank with u then control ur temper
and learn to accept ppl's comment... I juz talked to
the person who confirmed with u that I was talking
abt u and girl 2... and I realised alot of things... from
why XJAYZ meeting didnt work out till weakly
bonded clique... I tell YZ we r equal and should be
given some respect from u... and let me quote YZ's
reply:
"ya but we will nvr be treated equally... nvr..."
Infer from this reply... I am sure ur inference is
that bad... everyone tolerate u doesnt mean we
r fine with it... Why they dont wanna voice out is
juz the same reason as why I dont tell u straight in
the face... u r a hard headed person... too proud to
admit defeat... I think it's time u do some soul
searching... YZ can tolerate... but not everyone is
like her... I know what is the consequences I will
face if u saw that entry... I am ready to face it...
anyway that entry is specially for u...
Seriously I do treat u as my friend and that's why
I would rather I confront u now than next time
u suffer... U think I so free wanna say all this to make
u condemn me arh??? I can easily juz shut up and
pamper u but that's not doing u any good...
I dont care how u r gonna look at me after this... I
had done my part as a friend... and if I really wanna
backstab u... I would have written ur BIG name here...
and go around badmouthing u...

Masked

2006-04-05T20:35:00.000-07:00

This is a story abt 2 girls in a clique... girl 1... Loud and
dominanting... girl 2... timid and easily influenced...
Well... the common thingy is... both loves to wear masks!
Both always say things behind each other's back... but...
infront of one another... they r like SOOO close and nice...
Best of best friends... haiz... for girl 2 to do that I understand!
Coz her character is juz like that... timid... never dare to voice
out... forever go with the flow... not decisive... BUT!!! the
ironic thing is girl 1!!! She claims to be straightforward...
to me... it's only claimed to be... to me... she can only talk
big... haiz... forever make herself sounds so daring...
to me simply I see it as bully the weak, afraid of the evil!
haiz... What makes me really wonder is that... r their
friendship for real??? is the clique really strongly bonded?
is it juz cliques in clique??? Or r they juz using each other?
well... shall let u ppl decide... some of u out there may know
what I am talking abt... hahaha...

flying shoe

2006-04-05T20:10:00.000-07:00

Before the march holiday ends... mummy get me a pair of
new sch shoes... Sleese... Size 7... quite big... The next day
I went for PE lesson... happily running with my pair of new
shoes... then guess what??? I run run run when the shoe
on my right foot flew out... then yizhen who was running
behind me kena shocked... it flew sooo high that it almost
hit her face... that's not the end... then we went to practice
our five stations for napfa test... I did the standing broad
jump... and history repeats itself... when I jump and land
the shoe came off again!!! this time more ppl saw...
Everyone burst out laughing... I damn MALU!!! well...
guess I was the joke of that day... Joker huh...

OKay... yizhen... I FINALLY blogged abt this incident le...
hahaha.......

Pulau Aur 3

2006-03-13T17:30:00.000-08:00

Day 3
Woke up earlier... 7.00am plus... still groggy from
sleep... forgot which basket pull away my blanket!
Christ if I am not wrong... washed up... have my
breakfast then head off to dive... Went deep diving...
water was kinda cold... reach the bottom daddy
robin conducted a Narcx test... I was asked to spell
my name backward... wanted to juz spell IUP IUP
which is pui pui... easier for me... but I didnt...
in the end I spelled GINYIL NEHC... if I am not
wrong... it ended up not Chen Liying but Chen
Liynig... hahaha... funny... well... I still got most
of it correct! Then is our FINAL dive!!! Grand
FINALE... hahaha... went down swim swim
swim and saw alot of batfish... then I saw a blue
starfish hiding... so nice... hahaha... the best part
is TURTLE!!! me and vien were SO fascinated by
it then we went to swim with the trutle and totally
forgot abt daddy robin... LOL~ aiya... daddy robin
u juz dont have the charm that the turtle carries...
LOL... That's it!!! we ascend and head back to the
island... and Christ juz keep saying we r lousy...
sob~
To Christ: We got improve lor for the subsequent
dives... why u SOOO not encouraging one...
afterall we r juz 16 old babies... cant u be nicer...
hahaha... u still own me coconut bread... Dont
forget!!! Oh yah... thanks alot for the picx!!!
Oh yah... basket... u still wanted to dump me
into the water... haha... luckily Shipei was
there to keep u accompany... if not I guess
I would suffer her fate... haha, I pity her~

To Daddy Robin: Thanks for being there...
and regarding the misunderstanding... haha...
forget it lah... heck lor... I also dont know what
to say... totally speechless... haiz...
TOOPID 'HER' Oh yah... I MUST thank ur
shoulder too... haha... very comfortable... ;)

That's all for the trip... wanna know more details...
come to me... terms and conditions applied... LOL~
Oh yah... our poor vien... Puke throughout the
trip... in fact alot of ppl puke and puke... cant
believe I actually have been diving in a sea of
PUKES!!!!!!!!! hahaha... Okie dokie... THE END!

Pulau Aur 2

2006-03-13T16:59:00.000-08:00

Day 2
Woke up at 9.ooam plus and went to dive at 10am...
first dive was hopeless... havent been diving for
months afterall... buoyancy was terrible... hahaha...
cant sink into the water... funny... struggling near
the surface... when I an in the water I float up then
cant go back down... LOL... after the first kena
kena NAG by Christ... He said me, vien and shipei
are terrible... and he wants to see some improvement
the next few dives... F.I.N.E... fine... After resting
we went for out lunch and go for our second dives...
we saw alot of creatures... lots of beautiful marine
lives... cuttlefish... NEMOS!!! sea slug... colourful
fishes... corals... starfishes... absolutely amazing!!!
Our last dive was night dive... everyone was
looking forward to it... Vien very funny... she was
SOOO scared that she keep grabbing my hand...
I wanna move my torch to see things also very hard!
LOL... most ppl were nervous... and all crumbled up
together... hard to move... well... seeing a puffer
fish was a bonus though... VERY CUTEEE... all blown
up... hahaha... like a balloon... so funny... along the way
I was playing with the colourful sea slugs... totally
enjoyable... after that was dinner and lucky draw...
I was so tired and blur that when Rafi called my
name... I was still looking around wonder who won
the snorkelling camera till rafi look at me and said
"OI... u lah!!!" haha... then the rest started laughing!
I so MALU~ I had an early night coz really exhausted!

Pulau Aur Trip

2006-03-13T16:35:00.000-08:00

HEY PPL!!! I am finally BACKKK!!! Home Sweet Home...
Still have the floating feeling though already on land...
LOL... really miss home... Okay... shall up date u guys
with some things abt my wonderful trip... hahaha...
Really glad to be back into the sea... so juz bear with me
alittle... LOL...
DAY 1
Set off from waikiki to mersing malaysia at 7.oopm plus...
for abt 4 hours we reach the jetty and board the boat to
Pulau Aur... the van ride was pretty alright... I slept...
coz too tired... the nightmare comes when I board the
boat... It was terrible, horrible, cucumber and vegetable!
u guys better thank god I am still have blogging this...
hahaha... The sea was sooo damn choppy... the boat
rock and pump when it travel... The feeling is
horrendous... I was so blur... tired and giddy... SEASICK!
sit also cannot, stand also cannot, walk also cannot...
Well... Daddy Robin save the day again... hahaha... In the
end I sat down on a banch half awake... and the boat rock
like nobody's business... luckily daddy robin sat beside me
if not most probably the jelly like me had already been
flung off the boat and kena swallowed by some kinda sea
creature... LOL... then I slept... It was a breath taking
sight when I woke up... the WHOLE sky was full of STARS!
BEAUTIFUL... something we never get in Singapore...
okay... then it was a wet landing... I get off the small speed
boat and first feeling was "OUCH!!!" full of rocks... and I
regretted not buying booties!!! After that we went to our
room... I took a quick shower and slept...

Caught in the middle

2006-03-08T20:30:00.000-08:00

Went for late lunch with Ms Yong, Mongying and
Joyce at pizza hut... We were eating and chit chatting
away abt our results and goals... things like that...
Before we went home... I forgot what me and Mong
Ying was talking abt le... suddenly she says...
"I know ur heart is not with 4A... Liying... I can see
wan... U r juz full of ur diving friends and primary
sch... outside friends..."
Mong Ying... I dont deny and will NEVER deny that
my heart is not with 4A... but that doesnt mean
that I dont reserve a place for u, ruyin, yizhen
and hui xian... in my heart... 4A may not mean
something to me... but u guys do... I know this year
u feel that I changed... but like I promised... it's not
gonna be permenant... coz this is not the real Liying
u guys see... When u guys need me... I promise I
will still be there... so dont think that I am juz full of
diving... divemates... outside friends... blah blah...
Not true... :)

Ups and Downs

2006-03-05T22:10:00.000-08:00

First of all... I wanna thank everyone of u out there who
help make my sweet 16 an unforgetable one!!! and also
all the wonderful presents u guys got for me... A big...
Big... BIGGG... thank you to Daddy Robin... Khui...
Chang Er... Da jie(pauline)... Nanny... Mongying... Yizhen...
Ruyin, my wife(dont say I never give u status... LOL~)...
etc... u may be missed out here but never forgotten!
thanks ppl!!! Love u guys!!! Rock ON!
Oh yah... a sincere apology to all my blog fans... (as if
I have any... hahaha... thick skinned!!!) Havent been
blogging lately... sorry to keep u guys waiting... haha...
Dont really have the time...
lately alot of things happened... Shipei and me had a
kinda dispute... haiz... very frustrating lor... and
somemore we r going to Aur together... damn... My
fault again lor... she says that I am insensitive...
Maybe she should rephrase it! She is too sensitive
for me!!! Haiz... arghhh.... dont know lah...
Forget it... I am tired leh... no strength for this kinda
friendship prob... Daddy robin is right... pui pui
should learn to let go sometimes... friends come and
go... I shouldnt waste my time le... she wanna carry
on being friends good lah... if she dont want... be it lor!
We juz cant click... and shipei... dont mind me saying
this... have u ever wonder why u have not many friends?
cannot be everyone is against u??? if that's the case...
that means u needa do some soul searching and not blame
it on others... I may sound mean... but that is what I
feel... u like it or not... ur problem... coz I had said my
piece...
Sch work is piling up!!! Sorry if I cant crap like last time!
But I promise I will recover after 'O' levels... u guys
can mark me on that... I know that everyone is stress
this year... sometimes... juz learn to keep our cool bahx...
keep flaring will only sour our friendship... this goes out
to everyone... esp my dear 4A clique... Juz pull through
this few months!!! we can make it!!! BELIEVE!!!
ALAMAK!!! I forgot to thank my 2Bee girls!!! hahaha...
hey girls... I love the mickey alot and sorry wasnt able
to celebrate with u guys... SORRY~ hahaha... Love u
guys alot!!! MUACKX...
Once again thanks ppl for showering me with MICKEY
stuff... hahaha... I love them... and BIG thank you to
everyone who have always been there for me all these
while... ESP Daddy Robin... and T4... hahaha... u guys
know who u r... Take care!!!

The Battle between teacher and student

2006-02-17T17:00:00.000-08:00

One of my classmate Nicholas got CANNED on his butt
today in class... coz he was rude to our maths teacher
Ms Yap... Nicholas kinda used the F word on her...
Then... Ms Yap... as emotional as ever cried... haiz...
That's why I say girls' tears NEVER fail them... Too
bad for Nicholas... That's besides the point! The whole
rude thingy dont happen overnight!!! A volcano erupts
only when it has reach it's limit... Everyone knows what
kinda personality Ms Yap has... and everyone in 4 A
witness the conflict between them... We very well know
that Nicholas is not TOTALLY not guilty of being rude...
showing attitude... BUT!!! what abt Ms Yap??? Can anyone
says that she is totally not at fault!?!
Mr Siah came to our class and started lecturing us... He said...
Look at this whole case excluding Ms Yap's personality... Coz
everyone has different characters and personality... YES!!!
So does Nicholas... He has his own "UNIQUE" personality too!
The factor that trigger off the whole incident today is actually
Ms Yap personality lor... And the thing is Mr Siah wants us to
put her personality aside??? WHY!?! Isnt obvious that he is
indirectly and silently agreeing that there IS problem with her
character!?! MY question is... if both r at fault... Why is Nicholas
the only one being punished!?! We understand that Ms Yap is
her colleague and he cant possibly WHACK her BUTT! BUT!!!
WHY whack ONLY Nicholas... It's a quit!!! Is that fair???
Seriously... have u teachers ever think of why is Ms Yap the
only one Nicholas is rude to??? Why not other teacher??? Isnt
it a question worth pondering over??? Students have temper
too u know... Mr Siah juz makes Ms Yap sound SO pitiful...
Hey LOOK!!! Who is the TIGRESS in class besides JOYCE!?!
Hey peeps... feel free to comment abt it... SPEAK UP PPL!!!

Pui Pui is BACK!!! hehe~

2006-02-16T17:30:00.000-08:00

Wow... it's been a long time since I last blogged... I bet most
of u miss my blog huh... one good example is DADDY ROBIN!!!
(He confessed himself, I didnt say that on my own accord! LOL)
Well... FEB is juz a wondeful month for me this year!!! Quite
alot of beautiful things happened to me and also my close ones...
Really happy... esp for Khaiting and Senior Heongkit!!! YEAH~
hahaha... the Perfect Match! Darling dont forget me leh... hee...
The day I LOVE MOST of feb is none other than 5 Feb...
(Not my birthday surprisingly... LOL...)
I shall not elaborate on it... u know it, u know it... If u dont...
hmmm... TOO BAD!!! lol...
HOWEVER!!! bad things kinda outweigh the good things leh...
hahaha... FIRST!!! THE MOST UPSETTING ONE!!! MY
DIVING TRIP TO BATAM!!! RUINED!!! *SOB~*
Secondly... Mong Ying and I had a disagreement... it's more
like a misunderstanding I would say... well... cold war...
What else... hmmm...I accidentally killed a PREGNANT BEE!!!
That is extremely GROSS!!! Imagine the BABIES wriggling
out of the stomach of the DEAD mummy BEE!!! OMG...
And it's like LOTS of them!!! *PUKE~*
That's abt it I GUESS... lol...
Looking forward to my birthday at the moment... hehe...
SWEEEEEEET SIXTEEN!!! lol...
*Mummy crying~ "My Baby girl has finally grown up~"*
LOL... What else can I crapz abt??? Seems like there is
alot I WANTED to say... but I FORGOT!!! ARGHHH~
Sorry ppl... ur buddy here is Dorie no. 2... LOL...
Okie dokie... shall keep u guys updated ASAP... Love ya
guys... MUACKX... rock on!!! Keep making life difficult for
the TEACHERS... ESP~ u ppl know who... hahaha... Juz
kidding... :p

Just for laugh

2006-02-06T15:00:00.000-08:00

This entry is gonna be kinda crapz...
Juz for laugh ppl... and it goes out to everyone esp my
fellow divemates and DADDY ROBIN!!! hahaha.... (It's
been a long time I mention daddy robin in my blog... so
now faster add if not... he will SPANK me lor... hehe...)

Conversation between A&B abt Mantas...
A claims that he can speak Manta language...
B doubted it... but gave in to A (kind soul... LOL)
A told B that he even PROVIDE course for it...
(BRAGGING~ hahaha...) and there r many other
"INTERESTING" courses... hahaha...
B was AMAZED!!! (for the sake of entertaining him~)
A BRAGGED AGAIN!!! "OF COURSE LAH... What
PADI dont teach, we ADI will teach..."
B: ADI??? *Blur~*
A: yah~ a NEW diving organisation... stands for...
A___ Diving Institute...

Well... regarding this entry... most probably only the thick
skinned A will truely understand... hahaha... BTW... ADI
teaches u how to play badminton with MANTAS underwater!
yah... so it's a combination of diving and badminton... hehe...
Anyone interested let me know... I will make sure Mr A really
coach u well in that... hehe... LOL...

My blessed darling~

2006-02-05T12:30:00.000-08:00

Hey darling (khaiting)... juz went to read ur blog... Glad to
know that u r so So SOOO Happy now... and feeling soooo
blessed... hahaha... Love is really in the air that u r in...
I can sense it and smell it... LOL... No matter what... As
long as u r happy... I will be juz as happy as u... We r
buddies for sooo many years le... whatever that's mine...
It's also urs... so... ur happiness is also my happiness...
Ur victory is also mine... as long as u r happy... Haha...
Juz bear in mind that... no matter what... u will always
have me... unless u dont want me le lor... hahaha... I
really hope all ur dreams will come true... have faith
in urself... beat whatever sch that u want... Turning
16 soon... Hope I GET to celebrate it with u... OR...
Maybe u dont need me le... LOL... Take care darling...
Hope to see u soon...

House Keys or Handphone???

2006-01-31T20:30:00.000-08:00

Went out to meet my Buddy Khai Ting last night... It's been
a long time since we catched up... Well... I was asking her...
Should I keep the house key or the handphone... which is
more important... Without the house keys... Juz with the
handphone is useless... No shelter... No bed... No nothing...
And having a house with money in it... I can always buy
another better handphone... However... by throwing away
the handphone means I will lose contact with all my friends...
Knowing me... bad memories... cannot remember anybody's
phone number... not even mummy's or even MY OWN
handphone number.... hahaha... hopeless huh... Tough
decision... In the end... I told her wallet shall be the MOST
important one... hahaha... Okay... this entry only KT and I
will understand... hahaha... A little secret between us... Right
darling??? hahaha... love ya... MUACKX... hehehe...

life lately~

2006-01-25T19:00:00.000-08:00

Kinda stressed out lately... It's really a series of unfortunate
events for me... one after another... nearly suffocated me...
well... I was rude to alot of ppl too... due to my foul mood...
This morning juz blasted Debbie... so sorry girl... paiseh...
Whoever kena from me... sorry ppl... I didnt mean it...
Suddenly I feel alot of things r missing in my life... so many
things I juz couldnt let go... T4... which had long been forgotten
I guess... Haiz... raking up those sad moments again...
ARGHHHH~ I hate it... My first happy new of 2006 was one
of my friend made it into aerospace... SOOO happy for him...
Doing VERY well now... haha... God bless ya! and Hope 2006
wont be a terrible one for me... though that's the ONE and
ONLY goodnews I got sooo far... I hope there will be more
in the pipeline... slowly coming to me... wanted to talk abt
sch... lessons... CHINESE!!! haiz... On the second thought... I
better not... they will only drive me up the ceiling... Well... I am
gonna fight this battle alone... Self reliance!!! cant be like last
time anymore... No more T4... Sad... but I still gotta move on...

WE MISS u!!!!!

2006-01-19T21:30:00.000-08:00

MR CHENG!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha... SOOO glad u came back
today... hehe... by the way... he WAS my chinese teacher!
A very good one... Loves him alot... hahaha... He made my
chinese become better??? He did lah juz that u ppl didnt
realised it... LOL... Saw him today and when he said that
he did miss us... all of us almost cried... Really miss him
alot... the moment I saw him was indescribable... beyond
words... Manz... WE WANT MR CHENG WE WANT MR
CHENG!!! hahaha... Well... he promise to buy me xiao
long bao if I get a distinction for my chinese... YEAH!
For Mr Cheng and for my xiao long bao... I am gonna work~
hehehe... the meeting in sch with him today really gave me
the drive and strength to go on... hahaha... OKIE DOKIE...
Mr Cheng~ It's a deal... a distinction... xiao long baoS from
u... heh heh... juz u sit back and watch... I wont disappoint u!
HAHAHA... Hope to see him SOON!

Untitled

2006-01-18T19:30:00.000-08:00

It's been a long time since my last entry... Well... Sch was
pretty alright... so far so good... Alot of things happened...
So much so that I dont know where I should start
telling u guys... haiz... Well... my new blog skin... Hope
u guys will love it... if possible tag ur blog URL so I can
relink u guys... I only have afew with me at the moment...
Take care guys...

With you...

2006-01-04T15:00:00.000-08:00

Second day of school... Well... nothing much... the main
course is YET to be served... so... safe at the moment...
Juz change my blog's song... Hope u guys will love it...
It goes out to everyone out there.... ESP U... Hmmm...
sounds like I am dedicating songs on air or things like
that... From your blog... u r doing quite well... thanks
for the new year message... How could my 2006 be
any better than urs... Spent christmas eve alone...
well... new year eve wasnt the case for u... U cant be
any worse than I am... My WORST Christmas and
New Year ever... 2006 is juz not my year... DAMN!
Dont know what to say le... Whatever I wanna say
is in the song... That's all... 'O' levels this year...
Jia You peepsss!!! haha... take care...

Christmas Cards

2005-12-27T01:30:00.000-08:00

Juz got all the christmas cards from u guys... How sweet...
hehehe... A BIG thank you ppl... plus a BIG HUGGIE...
and that's $5.... very cheap lor... hehehe... juz kidding!!!

To Rou Rou: What kinda Christmas Wish is that!?!!!!!
TOOOPIDDD lah u!!!!!!!!! Hahahaha... since when I am
bian tai!!! SHHH~ Dont anyhow utter nonsense... haha...
Mr Lim says I am a GOOD girl okay! The most I juz
smash cakes into ppl's face during their birthday...
trick ppl into eating wasabi pandan cake... Throw ppl's
shoes over the fence only mah... OPPX~ :X AHAHAH...
U guys r "VERY" safe with me! I PROMISE!!!

To Nanny: Of course I will always be there... Dont worry
we will never stop diving!!! Know u enjoy being with me!
pui Pui PUI~ AHAHAHAHAHAHA HOWARDDD~ hehe!
Love ya... muackx Muackx MUACKX!!!

To the rest: THANK YOU ppl... u all owe me 5 bucks!!!
hehehe.... HUGGIE... another 5 bucks... that will be 10!

Dumb, Dumber, Dumbest???

2005-12-24T12:55:00.000-08:00

PART 1:
Well... I think I am driving our LAWIN nutx... ahahaha...
Forced him to sign Treaty Of Versailles since yesterday...
when he asked me for peace... No More Racism... haha...
He surrendered in our battle... so Treaty Of Versailles is
the only way out for him... AHAHAHA... A "GOOD"
offer I have for him... HEH HEH... So sweet of meee...
FINALLY~ he signed it juz now... the stack of documents
which will totally change his life... hahahaha... he juz signed
a blank cheque... and I am shouldering the most important job
now... Fill in the amount... ahahaha... *Lawin jelly legs...*
Dont pee in ur pants buddy! I will be VERY NICEEE... U
know me dont u... hehehe...

PART 2:
Life WITHOUT Daddy Robin... pretty please without
pink sugar on top... ahahahaha... useless... He DUMB
lor... go diving AGAIN... go BATAM somemore...
TOOOPIDDD... never pack me into his luggage and bring
me along... Leaving us here craving to dive...
CRAVE FOR SCUBA!!!!! AHHHHHH~~~~~ Damn...
Hmmmph... Coming back only on monday... we all
suffering from Daddy Robin Appetency le... And you
muz be missing my pui pui pui liao... faster come back,
remember dont die there... coz u will pollute the water!
hehehe... that's all for this tupid entry...

the ending

2005-12-24T04:00:00.000-08:00

1 year plus of made believe =
"U make it wrong, got it? I dont feel like talking to u!"
I finally see the picture...

Now you know

2005-12-22T23:15:00.000-08:00

Now You Know???

In these eyes
More than words
More than anything that I spoken
As the skies turned to gray
My hopes is just about to crack open
So the story goes
There is something you should know
Before I walk away and I blow the ending

and I never wanna be with out you
Oh no, here I go
Now you know
What I feel about you
there is no ending
I must have been wrong without you
Oh no, There I go
No control
And I m falling
So now you know

Feel so right
Craving oxygen
On this truth left me empty
Will you run
Can you handle it
Cause I need you to tell me
Maybe this is bold
But I m hoping you will stay for a happy ending

and I never wanna be with out you
Oh no, here I go
Now you know
What I feel about you
theres no ending
I must have been wrong without you
Oh no, There I go
No control
And I m falling
So now you know

No I wont look back
When I tell you what I think about you
No I wont look back
When I tell you what I think about you
So the story goes
You already know
So dont go and be a fool
And go spoil the ending

and I never wanna be with out you
Oh no, here I go
Now you know
What I feel about you, theres no ending
I must have been wrong with out you
Oh no There I go
No control
And I m falling
So now you know...

a bad fair day~

2005-12-21T22:45:00.000-08:00

Went down to waikiki to buy my wetsuit today... then have
lunch with Daddy Robin... Kinda happy... coz of the wetsuit!
Hahaha... During the lunch with Vien and Daddy Robin...
Shipei ERUPTED... I was SHOCKED... didnt know what to
do... gave her tissue kinda scolded by her instead... haiz...
Well... we deserve all those scoldings perhaps... always
disturb her... Her sudden eruption really caught us off
guard... but... after I passed her my tissue... she seem to
target only me... looking at me when she scolds... why me
again... I am in a SUPER DUPER lousy mood too lor... Juz
that I didnt take it out on anyone... so not fair to me...
Lucky her... I kept my cool... knowing that if I flare will
only make everything WORSE... so I juz sat there like an
moron eating that freaking spicy Laksa and kana from
shipei... haiz... Wah shipei u Big Fuck lor u... Even my
parents dont scold me like u did... I never talk back
somemore... After we thrash things out... We went to buy
wetsuit... Daddy robin got me a size 4 and ask me to try it
on... IN THE SHOP!!! and 4 is sooo small lor!!! Well... I didnt
really wear it then I tell him cannot wear... oppx! then he got
me a size 6... but I refused to change in the shop so we all
went to the toilet... Size 6 was okay... but wanted something
bigger... so I asked for 8... AHAHAHA... Then he walked
back to get it for me... so sorry Daddy Robin... :p
The day was kinda enjoyable... with Vien, Shipei and Daddy
Robin... Forgot abt those saded things for awhile... But...
night~ time of solitude like I said... Still cant help but to
think of u... listening to slow jam... the song we are r crazy
over... When am I ever gonna move on... Haiz... How I
wish that rain can wash off all my memories... Instead... it
make me sick... running a fever le... toopid rain... TOOPID
ME!!!!

Rain on me...

2005-12-20T21:00:00.000-08:00

Received ur sms... didnt know how to react... Didnt feel
like working... well... still dragged myself to the workplace...
Glad I still came back as a whole... no missing fingers or
what so ever... coz... I totally cant focus... trying very
hard to though... but still got burnt!!! haiz... after work...
went to sentosa alone... didnt feel like talking...
juz wanna be alone... wanted a moment to myself...
Sat at Siloso beach the whole day... Unlucky me... even
god is not on my side... It rained... and I juz sat there...
hoping that those rain drops will wake me up... The longer
I sat... the heavier the rain gets... Cold... but nothing
compares to the coldness I felt inside... As rain falls on me
I kept thinking abt what happened... trying sooo hard to
straighten out my thoughts... It seems rather useless...
I see nothing but big rain drops falling... I hear nothing
but the waves... The whole scene felt so sorrowful...
Sad... At the end of the day... I am still lost... Unable to
get myself out of the maze... Perhaps I should stop...
coz... there isnt an exit for me... at all...

2005-12-18T23:00:00.000-08:00

You'll never know
What you've done for me
What your faith in me
Has done for my soul
And you'll never know the gift you've given me
I'll carry it with me
Through the days ahead, I'll think of days before
You made me hope for something better
And made me reach for something more
You taught me to run
You taught me to fly
Helped me to free the me inside
Helped me hear the music of my heart
You opened my eyes
You opened the door
To something I'd never known before
And your friendship
Is the music of my heart
You were the one
Always on my side
Always standing by
Seeing me through
You were the song that always made me sing
I'm singing this for you
Everywhere I go I'll think of where I've been
And you're the one who knew me better than anyone ever will again
You taught me to run
You taught me to fly
Helped me to free the me inside
Helped me hear the music of my heart
Helped me hear the music of my heart
You opened my eyes
You opened the door
To something I'd never known before
And your friendship
Is the music of my heart
What you taught me
Only our friendship could ever teach me
You got through when no one else could reach me
'Cuz you always saw in me
All the best that I could be
It was you who set me free

P.S - That's what I feel... but it's of no use now...

a drastic change

2005-12-17T00:20:00.000-08:00

I am not playing games... U make it sound so easy...
Do u take my brain as some kinda computer... The
moment u press delete... everything is cleared... I
cant... U have moved on... U can throw away what
we have... but like I said... I still care... I cant do that!
I tried... but I juz cant... Things r diff... u accept it...
U no longer cherish a thing... U may be better off like
that... That's u... I juz reflects the opposite of u... I
do not understand right from the start why u wanna
do all those things... acting like an angel... my saviour~
If I were to know things would turn out this way... I
wish I never had it, so that I wont lose it... "No pain,
No Gain..." but after gaining... the pain comes again
when u lose it... What u said... totally kills the me u
mould into... U made my tears turn cold... Thanks
for making me learn how to HATE... So this is what u
want... viola... I will GIVE it to u... Initially I do feel
sorry for what happened... and I may be responsible
for it... right now... I am NOT sorry at all...

pain~

2005-12-15T23:35:00.000-08:00

Juz went to read ur blog... couldnt help it but to be
upset... my night used to be beautiful due to ur
companionship... Now I gotta agree that night is the
time of solitude... one and a half year plus... I dont
even know how we know each other... well... I didnt
forget the fun time we have...
Everytime I close my eyes... those scenes kept
replaying in my mind almost every night... It all juz
seem like yesterday... the feeling was almost clear...
felt so real... as though everything is still in place... but
in actual fact... everything had changed... U r the one
who make me believe what I never believe in... U r
the one who spice up my everyday life... U r the one
who is always there to dry my tears... U r the one
who sheltered me from all those diasters... Always
so protective... Always there... never fail to pick me
up when I fall... Juz tooo good to be true...
Unknowingly I became very dependant
on u... A completely changed me... willingly to accept
alot more things... U mould me into who I am...
Guide me through... Yes... I agree with u... disagreement
was sooo common between us... we fight... and sometimes
I turn out crude... hurt u verbally... u know I didnt mean
it... always so forgiving... and not forgetting speaker's
corner... things turns ugly... but everything will be worked
out there... everytime I pass by that place... it seems like
u r there... Well... this time... I am tired too... tried to work
things out... but nothing turns out right... helpless.. I dont
know what I should do... U walked into my life... knocking
down those walls... and rooted urself in me... now I have to
remove it... another failure... that kinda agony is too
painful to bear... everytime I walk in the rain... I will hope
they can wash those pain off me... without u... I guess I
will juz have to live with it... time to grow up... Looking
forward to christmas... but now... I hope it doesnt come...
Well... I guess I have come to the last page of ur dairy...
this is it... Leaving is sad but since it cant be denied...
Embrace it and move on with it... I will learn to do that...
Thank you for everything... making me realise alot of
things... and of course for tolerating my nonsense... I
didnt want to end it all... but... things juz dont work out...
*sobbb~* goodbye to everything...

Sleepless night~

2005-12-14T22:00:00.000-08:00

Yesterday night... I turned in at abt 12 plus... toss and turn...
No matter how hard I tried... I juz couldnt get myself to
sleep!!! Haiz... the worse part is the next day I gotta work
at 9am!!! AHHHH!!! toss and turn... TOSS and TURN!!!
look out of the window... RAINING... the first thing that
comes to my mind... Daddy Robin casted the pui Pui PUI
spell AGAIN!!! so... wanted to sms him to disturb him...
On second thought... being a good girl... I shouldnt do that...
hahaha... It's 4.30am in the morning!!! Still not asleep yet!
After looking at the clock... I went back to tuck myself into
bed again... trying ALL kinda freaking methods to get
myself to dreamland!!! Finally... orh orh le... It feels like
only afew min... the DARN alarm clock went off!!! ARGH!!!
Woke up... Stone in the bathroom... washed up... dressed up
and went off to work... STILL groggy from sleep!!! Haiz...
The whole morning is either I knock into someone... or kana
knock by someone... Reached my work place... a total walking
ZOMBIE~ do the wrong things... knock into the rubbish bin,
the sink... all kinda things... In a freaking sorry state!!! Well...
lucky me... working with the male boss... a more easygoing
person... to "sobber" me up abit... he actually ask me to walk
to PS DBS bank to help him take some bank in slips... Of
course I knew he did that to let me have a chance to breathe
in some fresh air... and also to wake myself up... Hahaha...
No doubt... it works!!! haha... work ended at 3pm... so after
that... went for lunch ALONE... then went home to PIGGG!!!
hehehe... okie dokie... that's all for today...

juz another entry

2005-12-13T23:30:00.000-08:00

What a starless night today... trying SOOO hard to look for
a star while I was walking home, but juz cant see any... haiz...
Went to bought my textbooks today... actually Laveen
wanted to accompany me but... last min cant make it... nvm!
So I brought my little niece along... hehe... she is juz 3 yrs
old... very chubby and cuteee~ ahahaha... After buying
my textbooks... brought her to mac for mum mum... hehe...
Manz... she can really eat! well... it was very stressful for
me to bring her out... a 3 yr old... gotta be very careful
with her... hahaha... so for the first time I felt like a grown
up... oppx~ hahaha... Later at night... met vien at CCK
MRT station while going to meet a good friend...
Chat for quite some time... have a drink, chat...
nice... it's been a long time since we really chat after all...
Too bad I gotta work tmr... if not we would have chat
longer... so saded... haiz... okay... that's all for today...

Sianz...

2005-12-12T23:55:00.000-08:00

Haiz... that day broke one of my fav. necklace...
So saded... *SOBBB~* It's from someone leh...
forget it... One week without daddy robin...
haiz... Once again... our beloved daddy robin
left us... may he rest in peace... oppx~
suddenly sounds like funeral... AHAHAHA...
Life without daddy robin is like coffee without
cream and sugar... I hate Kopi-O... Life without
Daddy Robin is like Christmas without Santa
and rain deer pulling the sleige full of gifts...
Life without Daddy Robin is like diving
WITHOUT scuba... oh dear... gonna die 4 sure!
AHAHAHA... Life without Daddy robin is like
rainy days with thunder and lightnings!!!
Life without daddy robin is like playing
badminton without my racket... Life without
daddy robin is like diving without logging...
Useless... hehe... Life without daddy robin~
Life without daddy robin~ *doze off~*

Pitiful pui pui~

2005-12-11T22:55:00.000-08:00

Daddy Mummy went out very early this morning
when I was still orh orh-ing... so gotta make my
own breakfast and lunch... eat ALONE AGAIN~
So saded... WA COW!!! (means I cry in hokkien,
daddy robin teach wan... if wrong beat him!)
After lunch went to work... actually I am suppose
to knock off at 8pm but my boss love me so much
that she kept me back till 9pm!!! I was SOOO tired
and hungry lor... jelly legs... havent eat since 1pm...
then work work work till 9pm... so ke lian right???
haiz... then on my way home I sms daddy robin and
shipei... None replied me... ask shipei come out
accompany me eat dinner she never reply me!!!
Though I know she wont come out wan lah... so ask
for fun... but... for fun also muz reply mah...
All dont want pui pui liao lor... Like that lor! *COW~*
Muz have abandon me dont know go where have fun
liao lor! Here am I... sitting infront of my com in an
empty house after pom pom-ing... eating maggie mee
and drinking ribena... SOOO ke lian...
Today whole day eat maggie mee!
daddy mummy dont know go where part tor havent
come back yet... Okay... I shall crap till here... tmr
morning still gotta work... SADED

A fun day... Weee~

2005-12-10T00:35:00.000-08:00

Today is my day off AGAIN... hehe... went out
to snorkel at Shipei's condo pool... (they despo
... cant dive... go snorkel in pool also happy...)
LOL! after "snorkeling" went to tan myself...
less than 1 hour... now my upper arm and
chest r RED~ Cant believe it manz... hehe...
Well... that's not the highlight of the whole
entry... Shipei and I FINALLY saw JX jie jie
le... saded for vien... (dont be too jealous...)
HA...HA...HA...HA... HOWARD... hehe... the
new laughter vien and me invented... WE
PROUDLY PRESENTS U WITH THE
HOWARD LAUGHTER... LOL~ Shipei's
fav. laughter... heh heh...
By the way... JX jie jie... we chat for quite
awhile... nice person... hehe... vien... u miss
it... hahahaha howard... okay... that's all for
now... Gotta work tmr morning... saded!!!

Today~

2005-12-06T23:58:00.000-08:00

Went to vien's place after going IMM with her and
shipei... Had dinner at her place too... Well... a
lesson learnt... Never ever eat at Vien's place again!
Very STRESSS for ME... hahaha... It's a MUST to
finish ur food at vien place... haha... but I didnt... so
Vien kept nagging... and almost wanted to locked me
at her place till I finish up my food... ahahaha...
Ouch~ my teeth r hurting AGAIN... went to tighten
my braces yesterday... so... the pain is coming...
Haiz.... When am I going to start enjoy life without
those freaking TUPID stainless steel in my mouth!?!
We thought Daddy Robin is coming back today... so
EXCITED... but now is more of DISAPPOINTMENT...
so late le still havent hear from him yet... SADED...
Shipei back from Japan le, he still not back yet... OH!
Shipei thanks for those things from Japan but I am
still eyeing on ur necklace... HEH HEH!!! Show me
more MICKEY lah... U DIE!!! AHAHAHAHA...
After Daddy Robin come back we can go for Reunion
Dinner liao... AHAHAHHAHAHA... [having it even
before christmas??? hehehe... kinda early...] Well!
Kinda a reunion for us bahx... ahahaha... I am
exaggerating I know... like we havent meet for few
months or few years... hehehe... okay... shall crap till
here today... Life without Daddy Robin... Haiz... No
mood to continue... AHAHAHA... Vien... we r 16 le...
Hehe... thanks to Daddy Robin!!!

A series of unfortunate events

2005-12-05T23:30:00.000-08:00

Well... juz finished pom pom-ing and went to look
at my buddies (stars) hehehe... It's quite a STARRY
night... haha... for a place like Singapore... quite alot
le lor... HAHAHA... a beautiful night indeed!!!
Stars shining back at me like diamonds in the sky!
breath taking... *suffocating~ LOL~*
Luckily the night was beautiful coz the Day was
$#$^%&^*&((*((*()*(%$#$#%%&***&^&%$#^
for me!!!
I went to freaking NDC is fix my teeth today...
Guess what... i waited for NEARLY 4hrs!!!
I was SO SOO SOOO FUCKED UP!!! I was
even ANGRIER when they tell me that the
dentists were out for LUNCH!!! I was there
STARVING, waiting for them... They actually
went out to EAT!!! so this is how they treat
their patients!!! WELL DONE NDC!!!
HUUUMMMPPPHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
@!##$%$^&&^%&^*^**&(**)(__)_)()()**&&*
@#@#$%^&*^*&()*())_()(&*%^#@#@#@$#
#@$#%$^%&^*&^*(&(*(**^$$#@$%&&^*&8
Great~ they make me went for my work LATE!
First day of work, LATE liao... MY GOOD
reputation GONE!!! My IMAGE GONE!!! The
GOOD IMPRESSION they have on me also
GONEEE.... Arghhh!!! nvm...
Well... first day of work wasnt too bad...
nice ppl... job wasnt tough at all... however
still felt kinda nervous... first time DUH!!!
But... I think I did a super duper GREAT
job... hehehe... 3 cheers for myself!!!
AHAHAHA... Alright... shall stop here for
now... going back to admire the considered
beautiful night sky hehehe... Twinkle
Twinkle little STARS~~~ blea blea blea...
hehehe... Oh... BTW!!! DADDY ROBIN is
coming back SOON!!! YEAH~~~ haha...

Twist of Fate

2005-12-04T23:59:00.000-08:00

Went to watch "Twist of Fate" (a musical play)
with Haziqah, Laveen, Suren and Vishal... It
was a very last min thingy... yah... However
glad that Haziqah asked... I wanted to go for
it the moment I saw the advertisement on TV
but no one seems to be interested... too
expensive is one factor... well... I still made it
for today's LAST show!!! ahahahaha.... and I
didnt regret paying 60 bucks for it... The
play was great... regardless was the acting part
or the singing part... TWO THUMBS UP!!!
YEAH~ *CLAPSSS~*
The play was about the darkest secret about
this Lim family... Rosaline was the daughter of
Lim Ching Boon and was betrothed to a guy called
Abert??? (oppx~ cant remember...) HOWEVER!!!
Rosaline fell in love with this Ang Moh which is
considered a taboo for a chinese or Paranakans
to marry an Ang Moh... They even have a Baby...
Once their baby was very ill, so they decided to go
back to the Lim Residence to ask for help, but before
that the baby was passed to a woman... Instead of
helping the poor couples, he murdered them out
of anger!!! Guess what the bodies were buried under
their terrace!!! Years later in 1937, a woman whom
believed that she could be the daughter of rosaline
came back to the Lims hoping to find out the truth!
Her name was Emma West... That's when alot of
dramas happened... On the birthday of Lim Ching
Boon and also the first time Emma could meet him
and ask him about her real parents, he was already
found dead by Emma... Inspector was being called
in and the whole investigating thingy began...
Everyone was a suspect and were questioned by the
inspectors... Emma West was the greatest suspect
becoz in the end they found out that she already
knew the one who killed her parents was Lim Ching
Boon, her grandfather but she wasnt frank towards
the inspector! So the real murderer took the
opportunity to push all the blame to her so that he
can get away!!! AND... ... ... Want to know more???
Dont tell u leh... ahahaha... come to me personally
lah... the story is tooo long... lazy to continue...
hahaha... so I shall stop here... Take it as a
"Trailer" AHAHAHA... I charge $5 for the full one!!!
HAHAHAHA... Very cheap liao le... dont bargain
liao hor...

Terror 4 again

2005-12-03T14:50:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was another sleepless night for me...
Cold, quiet and sad... turned in kinda early...
but... juz couldnt put myself to sleep... alot of
things went through my mind... alot of emotions!
talked to khui... kinda sad... and disappointed...
feeling was complicated... indescribable...
mixture of feelings... (like salads???) Mac...
Speaking corner, Big Gulp, East Coast, e thirty-
three... the pond... the fights among us... gald
that everything still went on fine... kopi bean...
SPENCER!!! ahahaha... kopi bean's aircon
leaking??? hmmm... lao ba sha food centre???
being cornered and run for our lives!!!!!!
That freaking playboy who kana from us...
forgot his name... Cant forget those times
when we laugh together... fight together...
thrash things out together...
studied together... get drunk together
do ALOT of naughty and EVIL things
together... and that's how we get our name!
and not forgetting those pampering I get
from u guys... I'm the baby in the group
afterall... Thanks guys... for making me once
believe again... I will never forget for once
having it... U guys never failed to be there...
No matter is Benny or Aaron or whoever...
I always got myself into trouble... haha...
and u guys never fail to clean up the mess
I created... once again... a BIG THANK
YOU... Take care and god bless...
Stay cool and rock on guys!!!

gonna have 2 ppl to miss soon

2005-12-01T17:30:00.000-08:00

Juz went out to have lunch with Vivien and
Daddy Robin at MOS in Causeway...
Life WITHOUT Shipei is like ribena
without ribena syrup... TASTELESS...
Wonder when is she coming back...
miss her liao! Tmr night Daddy Robin
also leaving us for some part of Thailand!
Life without daddy Robin is like... eating
Fries with salt when u have ulcer...
it's also like walking on nails without any
shoes on~ Haiz... AHAHAHAHA....
daddy robin... TOUCHED right???
I bet u r gonna miss my pui pui pui~
Okay~ shall crap no more... BTW...
Daddy Robin~ thank you for the COCO
CRUNCH~ hehe... and take care...
We will miss u and JX jie jie~ heh heh~

Upset~

2005-12-01T01:50:00.000-08:00

"SADED"
Dont ask me why... coz I am juz SAD~
sad... Sad... SAD... SADED!!!!!!
I'm soooooo BLUE...

Almost there~

2005-11-29T23:05:00.000-08:00

More or less done with my assignments??? haha...
Gotta revise all sec 3 work before school reopen!!!
Boring... I need a job... any lobang ppl??? hehe...
Gotta save up for my next diving trip!!! Or rather,
the advance course... hahaha.... CANT WAIT~
Havent even complete our advance vien and me
r already planning so many diving trips le... We
r really obsessed liao... hahaha... What we can
think of is dive Dive DIVE and more dives~
Ahahahahaha... Even my friends got freaked
out by me... heh heh... OKay... Shall end here
for now!!!

Blur me~

2005-11-27T18:30:00.000-08:00

I think something is very wrong with me...
I actually threw my cup which is in my left
hand into the rubbish bin after finishing
my drink instead of throwing the used
tissue which is in my right hand!!!
AHHHH!!! What's wrong with me!!! hahaha...
Kept doing all the silly things... hehehe...
I know it very well that I wanna throw that
tissue paper away!!! but... my brain pass the
message to the wrong hand!!! Oh dear...
I gotta go check up~ bye... guys... if I die...
PLz miss me... *Sob~*

Rot...

2005-11-26T13:15:00.000-08:00

Another day of rotting at home... hehe... Stoning right
infront of the com... (at least I didnt doze off like
someone... hehehe... u know who u r... haha...)
Wanna start my revision but seems that my heart
had flown to Pulua Aur... oppx... hahaha... (some
one plz help me get it back... hahaha...) well... I
think my Narcosis (divers' language) is getting more
and more serious... hahaha... any cure for that???
*Today is Sunday!!!* Hahaha...
I was chatting with Vien last night... Talking abt the
games they played during the diving trips... So FUN!!!
We also wanna play!!! hehehe... RAFI~ AHAHAHAHA!
His Face Kana till like monkey like that~ OPPX~ He
better not see this... hahaha... Okay... well... I shall
stop here before I blurt out more rubbish and get
myself into HOT soup... hehehe... Is that coz of
Narcosis too!?! *pondering~* hehehe...

My first job interview~

2005-11-25T13:45:00.000-08:00

I went for a job interview yesterday... I was all done up
like never before... It's totally not liying at all yesterday...
Look so so so different... I was forced to do up myself
like a Christmas Tree!!! LOL~ The company looks
normal to me... but... met a weird guy... His stares send
shivers down my ass!!! And that HAWK - LIKE
SCRUTINY!!! AHHH~ That's enough to make me
FREAK! Hahaha... well... I guess I will not go for that job...
coz it's pretty scary... and I have a bad feeling abt it too...
My guts is telling me not to do it... so... I shall be a GOOD
GIRL and listen to her!!! :D

Meee~

2005-11-24T23:25:00.000-08:00

Tonight is a cold night... It makes me feel more lonely...
There used to be many ppl there to hold... to keep me
warm... but now... all have come to an end... Perhaps...
it's time I really grow up that's why...
Ups and downs in life r inevitable... but it seems that
my rollercoaster ride is scarier than the rest... or...
should I say... more "interesting" I dont know...
Everyone sees me as a chicky, playful person,
do crazy stuff and loves to play pranks on ppl
Forever happy... Carefree!
How many really know how I feel... who exactly am I?
(not many I guess, coz I seldom show my emotions~)
Hey~ I am not a robort... I do feel down ppl... Juz that
I can hide it well... hahaha...
15 years of living on this cold planet... (though the ice
in the north and south poles r melting...) Havent really
found someone whom I really trust besides Mummy
and Daddy... Backstabbing, hypocrites r everywhere...
Haiz... sometimes I juz cant help but to wonder why is
the Universe created... What's the purpose of God doing
all this when not all get to enjoy the beauty of life...
Talking abt friendship... hahaha... I dont even think I
have the rights to comment anything on that... I am a
total failure... fullstop~ 15 years of living... havent really
got a true friend... "WHAT"S WRONG WITH U!?!" That's
what I love to say... hahaha... guess I am talking abt myself...
Maybe I really have Narcosis... that's why... LOL...
Why cant Mum and Dad give me an elder brother... Maybe
then I wont have this kinda stupid personality le... and at
least I will have someone whom I can really turn to for my
darkest secrets... haiz... Heaven's will... too bad I will have
to live with it... Well... haiz... shall shut up for now...

Meaningless Entry~

2005-11-23T00:05:00.000-08:00

Risk my life, sneak out of the house to watch harry potter
today... haiz... the movie was quite disappointing I would
say... *cough~* silly me... play in the rain when I am
already sick... hahaha... fever le lah... nvm... Keep
thinking of diving give me the strength to carry on... LOL!
May god bless me...

Lost...

2005-11-21T21:52:00.000-08:00

Haiz... Last week have been focusing on Diving lesson and
things like that... Now Lesson end le... I feel SOOOOOO
LOST~ *Sob...* Somehow juz feel something is
missing!!! MISS those mugging days... MISS the lessons!
MISS the "TESTS"... MISS the instructors... MISS
Pulau Hantu... MISS the scratches from corals...
MISS the Bee Hoon (though I anti them! Haha...) MISS
EVERYTHING... MOST importantly... ALL those
dramas by SHI PEI and HOWARD!!! hehehe...
Cmon... I am still in the "Diving mood..." It's like....
After taking drugs you are addicted to it!!! That's
the kinda feeling... ARGH.... Any Rehab centres for
diving addictions??? I WANNA DIVE!!! GIVE ME
MOREEEEEE..... lol... *siao liao~*

Final day of fun...

2005-11-20T18:50:00.000-08:00

Well... People listen up!!! I am now a CERTIFIED DIVER!!!
*Applause~* YEAH~ so happy!!! $380 is damn worth it...
Everybody enjoyed during the dive trip... Esp Vien and
me... hahaha... perhaps SHI PEI enjoyed more than we do!
HOWARD~ HOWARD~HOWARD~ Whoever goes for this
trip will definitely know abt the dramas that happened...
The wearing of wrong shirt - claimed to be accidental...
but... Robin and Vien... Do u guys buy that???
Shi Pei... Cmon lah... u r a lousy liar!!! HAHAHAHA...
Oh... btw... Robin is our instructor whom loves to
"PUI~ PUI~ PUI~" and still own me CoCo
CRUNCH hopefully comes with RIBENA! LOL...
Not forgetting what Howard muttered... "She dont like
me anymore lah..." AWWW... That was CLASSIC!!!
HAHAHAHA... So funny... We r totally enjoying!!!
Every minute is like watching drama... The drama is
"Love u, Love u not" Starring Howard and Shi Pei...
HAHAHA... ShiPei loves Howard but doesnt show and
caused Howard to be confused and made the "she dont
like me anymore" statement... HAHAHAHA... Well...
today is the last day of diving lesson... that doesnt mean
the fun has ended!!! We can still go for advance!!! Then
Shi Pei will be in another new show this time round!!!
The directors will still be the same I hope... None other
than ROBIN, VIEN and MIGHTY LIYING, Mickey,
Baby, chicky... whatever... Okay... shall end here... hehe!
*TOAST TO HOWARD AND SHI PEI!!!*

Diving 3

2005-11-18T23:15:00.000-08:00

Tmr is the day I have been waiting for!!! OPEN WATER DIVE!!!
hahaha... well... I am excited but scared and nervous at the
same time... I worried that I will panic in the water... haha...
No matter what... guys... pray for me!!!
TO BE CONTINUED...

Diving (2)

2005-11-17T01:30:00.000-08:00

Yesterday's pool session was fun I would say... but... the wet
suit was darn tight!!! (make me look like airport... hahaha...)
Oh yah... if u havent heard of ppl "falling down" in water...
let me be the first... "I actually fell down in the pool" and
ended up with a blue black on my knee... SOB~
And the scuba tank was heavy.... 18Kg!!!! it makes me
walk like a penguin!!!! lol... the worse is... it is not the only
weight on u!!! That's okay... however breathing under
water was cool though I had some difficulties due to my
braces... hehehe...
Today's theory exam was a REAL close one!!! I PASSED
becoz the instructor helped me alot!!! and not forgetting
Vien and Shi Pei!!! hehehe... Thanks alot guys!!!
Okay... gotta go for now... bedtime... and I shall
continue to update u guys... stay tuned... hahah...

DIVING ROX!!!!

2005-11-15T12:55:00.000-08:00

Okay, yesterday was my first diving theory "test"... And it's
a close one... hahaha... NEARLY FAILED!!! lol... The
lesson was okay... instructor is cool...
(CHI da bian... Nanny and Shipei should know what I mean!)
Lesson was very funny I supposed... Shi Pei was laughing
through out... hehehehe...
Well... tonight is my FIRST pool session... Cant wait to try
out all the equipments.... SO COOL~ Okay.... I shall update
u guys again as soon as possible...

Jokes of the day...

2005-11-11T13:20:00.000-08:00

Mr. Lim... Mr.Lim... It's time to dig those shit out of ur ears...
hahaha... before u embarrass urself again... like today...
Here's how the story goes....
"Because the rays didnt bend..." the answer to Mr.Lim's
question by Ruyin... (With the help of us of course... haha...)
"HUH? RAZOR BEND?" and that's what Mr. Lim heard...
Ruyin repeated 2, 3 times... "the rays didnt bend~"
Mr.Lim also repeated 2, 3 times
"HUH??? RAZOR BEND???" Hahahaha... joker eh?
Anyway... I shall let 3Aians to be the judges as to
if the problem lies on Ruyin or Mr.Lim... hahaha...

Oh yah~ Today Hui Xian, Mong Ying and myself are very
HAPPY!!! Girls... u should know why... PARTY'S ON~
*Cmon get up~ Party baby! Gotta get up~ to party baby~*
HAHAHAHA... ALRIGHT... The game has juz started!!!
*wink~* *wink~* hehehe...

New SKIN!!!

2005-11-10T22:20:00.000-08:00

Okay guys... Prepare alot of tissues for urself... I PROUDLY presents
you my new blog skin - JESSICA ALBA-Intoxicated!!! *SIZZLE~*
HOT huh... hehehe... nose bleeding already guys??? Heart skipping a
beat??? Relax~ hahaha... anyway... VOILA~ my new blog skin!
Hope u guys will love it...

DIVING...

2005-11-07T21:10:00.000-08:00

Well... Exam is over but I am still MUGGING!!! (Lamez shit...)
Hahahaha... That's for my diving lesson... Can't wait to get over
my lectures and pool session!!! I BELONG TO THE SEA!!!
LOL.... seriously cant wait to go into the sea to explore
beautiful and incredible marine lives.... *Under the sea~
Under the sea~* *YEAH~* hahaha... okay... Gotta continue
MUGGING!!! Dont want my instructor to SCOLD ME!!!
*SOB~* PULAU HANTU HERE I COME!!!

Touched...

2005-11-05T18:38:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was the day I had a serious talk with my Dad about
leaving for overseas... Many ppl may feel that is too early to talk
about it... However, like father like daughter... we felt otherwise!
Hahaha... through yesterday's talk, I love my Dad even more...
He is the angel, the friend, the counsellor and of course the Dad!!!
He is everything... And I love him... though I dont make it obvious,
but I definitely do... He said that no matter what I do, he will
support me as long as he can. I wanna leave for Singapore, he may
not bear but for my dreams... He is willing to spend that huge sum
of money on me!!! OH MY GOD! What have I done in previous life
to deserve this kinda Dad... Hahaha... I promise I would not let him
down!!! Not anyone who loves me... hahaha... I will bring the family
honour!!! Do them PROUD!!! YEAH~ hehehe...

DAMN!!!

2005-11-04T22:55:00.000-08:00

DAMN!!! According to Shi Pei, there is only 24 places in DENTAL
THERAPY in NYP!!! The ONE AND ONLY poly that provides
DENTAL THERAPY has ONLY 24 PLACES IN IT!!! DAMN!!!!
I am FUCKING PISS and WORRIED... (dont know why piss...)
AHHHHH... I am going out of my mind!!! PUI~ SHI PEI!!!!
U REALLY MADE MY NIGHT!!!! AHHHH!!!! U PRAY HARD
I WOULD BE GRATEFUL ENOUGH AS NOT TO KILL U TMR
FOR TELLING ME THAT FREAKING NEWS...
@!#@$#%%&*^*&()*&%%#@#@$%&^&^*&()*(&*&*%%#
@!@$%#$^%&^*&()*)_(+_)**^$@#$@#$%^&())_)()*^$$#$#$
*PANTING~* Whatever... No matter what.... I will never give up
SPIRIT OF MY HERO!!! - ZORRO!!! *CLAPS~* *WHISTLE~*

My Idol!!!

2005-11-03T15:20:00.000-08:00

Hey... that's one of my IDOL!!! haha... Dr. Kevin.
Sands... A very famous Cosmetic Dentist in
HOLLYWOOD ppl... How great huh... Manz...
(Nvm... One day I will be as successful as him!!!)
DENTISTRY ROCKX!!!!!! YEAH~ *CLAPS~* *Whistle...*
P.S Enhance your most BEAUTIFUL and VALUABLE asset
..... your... SMILE!!!
Look! Dr. Sands has a great SMILE too...
(Being lamez... Haha...)

Legend of Zorro

2005-11-02T22:30:00.000-08:00

YEAH~ I didnt rot at home today... hehe... I went out to watch
LEGEND OF ZORRO!!! (With Laveen... Unlucky me... haha...
Juz kidding) Nice movie... definitely... 5 stars... out of 5 duh...
hahaha... In the movie, Zorro didnt give up what he wants to do
in life despite the objections of his wife and all those problems
he faced... In the end, California and America was saved!!!
He is the Hero of America and definitely mine too!!!
I long to study dentistry in Columbia, Princeton or Melbourne

(SADED... Princeton no Dentistry or any dental stuff... *SOB*

NVM... Columbia and Melbourne would be nice!!! hehe...)
University... Whoever read this may think I am SIAO...
Feel that I am thick-skinned... Think so highly of myself... Dream
too much... Whatever... I don't care... At least I DARE to DREAM!
I was afraid but now... I can look into anyone's eyes and say NO!
And most importantly I WILL TRY to make my dream come true!
Through the movie, I have learnt to become braver and
STRONGER! I am definitely ready to face and solve any problems
I may encounter on the route to being a successful DENTIST!!!
Shall always keep the spirit of Zorro ALIVE!!!

"Into the pool"

2005-10-29T01:30:00.000-07:00

Well... juz got back from a swim from Shi Pei's house...
It was really nice... and fun... However swimming with 2 experts
is rather stressful for me!!! haha... whatever... I really enjoyed
myself... and cant wait to go for my diving lesson!!! YEAH~
Anyway Shi Pei and Nanny... I want BUTTERFLY!!! Not
our dear Brendan... They got no link! Hello... (knock on the heads)
Forget it... the more I tried to explain the worse it gets... so...
NVM! No matter what... I still want my BUTTERFLY!!! LOL...

Fucked up!!!

2005-10-28T14:55:00.000-07:00

Okay... I finally got my modem fixed... (by my com's doctor duh!)
I am happy no doubt... ("exhilaration bubbled up like soda water"
thanks to Ms Yong... driving us nutx with those Eng phrase...
Cmon... give us a break!!!)
Whatever... that's not my point... I am really fucked up to see the
"LOVEY-DOVEY" message on my tagboard by Mr. "ur_man"!
BULLSHIT!!! (If u happen to read this... Juz wanna tell u...
you are a total fucker!!! ASS! COWARD! Bastard! whatever...)
Hey! If u have the gall (which I doubt u do) let me know who u are
I will make sure u become the BEST FUCKER EVER!!!
(Make u into a fucking eunuch! I PROMISE! Fucking happy huh?)
Anyway, u better be someone I don't know... IF NOT!!!
Watch out and becareful... Mess with me??? I want u dead...
THE FUCKING GAME IS ON!!!

P.S. Pardon me for that kinda low class words that I use ppl...Darn angry!

Talk about results no more

2005-10-22T15:20:00.000-07:00

Okay! This entry has nothing to do with my results... Too ashamed
to talk about it... haiz... nvm... What's more important is 'O' level...
(comforting myself???)
Finally... everything is over... kinda lost... dont know what to do...
Haha... wanna get a job... (earn extra allowance duh...) Planning to
go for diving course... still waiting for my friend... haha... Hell
lot of things I wanna do this coming holiday... lol... one step at a
time... a boring day indeed... (My entry sound boring ad dull too!)
haha... alright... shall keep all of u updated... stay cool peeps!!!
Prepare to rock the vacation!!!

Doom day

2005-10-20T13:45:00.000-07:00

Today is my Doom Day Eve... Most Probably we will be getting
back some of the papers tomorrow... Ah Manz... Whatever it is...
as long as I get promoted... Buddha... Jesus... whatever gods
there are... Aliens... whoever.... juz BLESS me!!! PLZ....
Pretty plz.... pretty pretty plz with pink sugar on top!!!
(When did I become so girlish??? haha... MY GOD!)
GOOD LUCK PEEPS!!! See ya guys!!!

Into The Blue

2005-10-20T12:45:00.000-07:00

I went to watch into the blue yesterday, with khui...
(Jie Yim was not there... sad... ended up it's a Terror 2 thingy...)
The movie was definitely my kinda thing... Beach babes and hunks,
they are (sizzle...) HOT!!! Jessica Alba and Paul Walker... MANZ...
Wait... that's not my point, haha... What attract me most was the
CLEAR BLUE SEA!!! The marine life, the diving suits... manz....
That's sooooo DARN COOL... THE SHARK!!! Which ripped off
half of Amanda's leg... (That's was gross people! but I love it...)
Seriously... I cant wait to get my diving license.... LOLX...
The marine lives are damn beautiful.... the colourful fishes, the
corals and everything... and hopefully I will find some treasure
like what happen in the movie.... (Day-DREAMING...) LOLX...
Alright, shall end here for now... DIVING ROX!!!

YEAH~

2005-10-18T09:50:00.000-07:00

I, Chen Liying (Mickey, chicken, whatever nick name there are)
from 3A hereby declares that the tormenting days are OVER...
"WOOO... HOOO... Ole... Ole Ole Ole...." ---> sound effect...
Okay settle down ppl! Shhh... Let the official closing down of the
gate of hell (gate to examinations for those kukus who are lost...)
ceremony begins.... *YEAH~*
1...2...3!!! ('POP') Cheers people!!! *claps~* Today is KSS sec 3s'
"independence day"!!! YES......................................... STOP!!!
What am I talking about??? haha... pardon me people...
Too thrilled by the fact that examination is OFFICIALLY OVER!
YEAH!!! Let the PARTIES BEGIN!!!
[A hammer to reality...]
All those are temporary... if we dont do well... HAPPY NEW YEAR!
WHatever it is... have fun first... haha... enjoy before we die!!!

Ending soon...

2005-10-17T22:45:00.000-07:00

Tmr is the last paper!!! YEAH!!! *Claps~* *Whistle~*
Gotta POP a bottle tmr people!!! WOOO HOOO....
That happiness is temporary... Haiz.... If I dont do well...
which is VERY LIKELY to happen... haha....
"SOMEONE GONNA GET HURT REALLLLLL BAD!!!"
I may not live to see the next sunrise ppl... Don't miss me too
much... *Boo Hoo...*

To Terror 4

2005-10-17T21:15:00.000-07:00

To Terror 4:
It's been a long time since we get together to terrorize
places.... I really miss those days... Really wanna get together and
have fun with u guys... Anyway... no matter what happen...
Terror 4 will always be Terror 4... and u guys will always mean
something to me... Haiz... that's all I guess... I don't know how to
put my thoughts in words now... Confused... I juz have a feeling
that we are drifting apart... Whatever... After Khui's 'O's, then
let's get together and have a drink bahx...

Mein Kampf (2)

2005-10-16T19:03:00.000-07:00

Lately I have been asking around about leaving Singapore to go
overseas to study and pursue my DREAM!!! During the "research"
got alot of help and advises, esp from Da Jie (Pauline) Thank you
so much!!! Havent really decided when to leave, but no matter
what I will complete my 'O' levels and do well first... As long as I
do well, I can have everything in my way... hehe... (Get to choose
and not take the leftovers!!!)
I have 3 countries in mind now though... USA, Australia & London.
Personally, I prefer USA... but I still have alot of factors to consider,
so... again... after 'O' level then decide... Hahaha...
One good thing is that I found a COMPANION to join me!!! That's
none other than my dearest, loveliest NANNY (vien, RVSS)
That's also not confirmed yet, hopefully we will get to go together!
Most likely we will go together(Comforting and deceiving myself?)
Supergran (Mun) dont be too jealous if Nanny really go with me...
Haha... the most u come visit us lor!(Do I sound sarcastic? hehe...)
No matter what, things shall be confirmed only after 'O' level! So...
People... enjoy my presence while u can, if not u will come crying
to me and regret!!! haha...

Special thanks 2

2005-10-15T01:40:00.000-07:00

Okay... I am forced to do this!!! The thick-skinned is none other
than my dearest "DAD" (Bing Xiang) Saw the jukebox on my blog?
That's done by him, and most of the credits of getting those
fantastic songs goes to him too! (HEY... wait! Southside is done
by me though, nicest of all yah!?! hehe...) Thanks "DAD"!
Not forgetting Maria (Syed) He did contribute in doing the
jukebox and got me Get Right by J.Lo... nice huh...
(But southside better... found by me DUH! LOLX...)
All right... A BIG thank you to both of them and of course
myself!!! haha... ( though only did abit... better than nothing!)
Finally my blog is done!!! by 5 person (myself included)
A "BIG" project indeed... alot of manpower needed... LOL!
THANK YOU PEOPLE!!! rock on...

The result of too much of History (Drives someone nutx!)

2005-10-15T00:56:00.000-07:00

Wonderin, Friday, October 14, 2005:
Yo brother! a testimonial for u~!"know lah.... Juz a blur normal
girl.... "u admitted urself that u are blur arh :Dhmmm...this brother
of mineBlur..=/....always late..Source A: "shit lah...."Source B:
"bullshit lah u"With reference to source A, i infer that my brother
likes shit alot, suggesting that he is a shitty person=/ as seen from
"..shit lah.." , proving that he is a shitty person since he like to hang
the word "shit" in his mouth.This inference is supported in source b
that he is shitty person as seen from "..bullshit lah u...", adores shit,
even bullshit.In conclusion, this brother of mine is blur to a small
extent, while shitty to a big extent =Dwell hahas thanks for guiding
me on History +SS all along yah XDthats it take care bro XDDD
My comments: Wah lao... Brother, u good lor... like that say me! lolx
Anyway people if u happen to come across this testi on my
friendster, ignore it... haha... coz both of the sources are not reliable.
Firstly, the sources are commented by a person whom I always
throw lemon at, thus there are some prejudices against me! haha..
Next, according to sources C to Z, liying is a nice girl/boy (Manz..
u caused me 2 mix up my gender! started off with she then he,
then is he or she? nvm!) HAHA... Sources C to Z stated that
"a smart, nice and helpful person" According to my background
knowledge, Liying is a very helpful person!
She/He help brother with his History, haha... Base on all that,
thus both sources A & B r unreliable! Haiyo! I help u with
history, if u do better than me... I CRY arh!!! LOLX...
(Actually I didnt help him much,Hee..I have probs with His myself)

A race of rabbit and turtle

2005-10-13T18:59:00.000-07:00

One day Turtle decided to have a race with Rabbit and see who will
eventually reach the finishing line first... Rabbit agreed without any
hesitation knowing that she will definitely beat Turtle
The moment the gun was fired, Rabbit dash forward throwing Turtle
way behind... After awhile Rabbit look back, however there was no
sign of Turtle. Confident that Turtle would take a long time and she
would surely be the champion, so she decided to take a nap under a
tree... Who knows, in the end the over confident Rabbit over-slept,
and Turtle took over her... When Rabbit woke up and come to
realised it, it was too late, Turtle had won the race!!!
The moral of this story is - Do not be proud... It's good to be
confident, however OVER-confidence lead to failure... That is what
happened to me for PHYSICS!!! *SOB~*
Thinking that I would definitely do well for physics I put all my
effort solely on Geog... Look what happened... I couldnt do my
physics!!! MAnz... I am so DARN SCREWED!!!
God... plz give hammer me back to senses!!!
FEED ME WITH ALOT OF HUMBLE PIES!!! Someone!!!

Special Thanks! Yeah~

2005-10-12T17:43:00.000-07:00

Finally... This Blog is finally done up... And it's not by me definitely... (Coz I dont know how and no patience...) Hahaha... Firstly wanna thank Yi Zhen who helped me create this blog, next of course the MOST IMPORTANT person who help to spice up my blog, duh... That's none other than my WONDERFUL cousin!!! Spending the whole afternoon juz to do this for me... hehe... so touched!!! Love ya gal!!! muackx... Muackx... MUACKX.... hehe... That's all for now! Do check out on my blog time to time ppl!!!